Life!!!

It’s a wonderful day, everything white covered with almost half inch of snow, but deep inside I am feeling low.
  There’s no reason why I should feel low. I have everything what an average human would crave for. I have an amazing family, wonderful friends and a great job which I can  never complain about, but I just keep complaining about all of them and more often about my life. Is there something that I really lack in life? Is there anything I need to do? I feel inferior, often compare myself  with others and always want to live up to the expectations of my friends, parents or who all are around me. I never want them to get hurt and this particular thought hurts me a lot. Should I let go of everything that people think of me and live my life as I desire? Will it suffice my feelings? Do I need something else in my life? I just hate feeling this way; it gives me a huge discomfort and I always hope not to have this feeling and it’s like I am somewhere inside an abyss that I never can get out of. I can neither die nor live happily but just hang in there.

I always question myself. Do I need to change the way I look at life or Do I need to change the way I live?  But I never get an answer.